It's been a while since I last wrote.

Life has been strange and wonderful and tiring...

There's a sudden loneliness when you realize the immensity of the burden that one carries. And the most challenging piece of information comes one you find out that your closest -- friends, family, and partner -- are actually a source of the tension as well.

I tell myself that things will work out eventually. It should not be the hard. I'm sure the worst is over and the best is yet to come.

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