The Eternal Ramblings of a Conflicting Mind

I often get such remarks from people who hardly know me: "You're so opinionated." or "Wow, you're judgmental." My first reaction is to recoil from such words. And the next is to dismiss the people as 'opinionated'. How could someone bring forth such comments, based on a single meeting, minimal interaction, and not even knowing anything about the person of whom he has just passed 'judgment'? Empathy & Apathy. How we learn that the hard way. Maybe the state of the world is such. We can't change it. It's just another walk in the park for some people... ------------------------------------------------------------------ The Compact Oxford English Dictionary States: Judgmental : 1 of or concerning the use of judgement. 2 having an excessively critical point of view. Opinionated : assertively dogmatic in one’s views. Opinion : noun 1 a view or judgement not necessarily based on fact or knowledge. 2 the beliefs or views of people i...

It is only during a crisis, when you realise the burden of responsibility. It is only during a crisis, that we understand that being responsible also means the loss of liberty. Liberty is not free. It comes with a price. People say that truth liberates. It doesn't. It simple lets you see the bare, harshness of living. There are joys to living, of course. But it is such hard work. People are scary creatures. I've never quite learned how to handle them. How I wish life were really simpler. How I wish I didn't have the burden of truth. Truth that liberty is a myth. It only belongs to a handful of people who chooses to ignore responsibility, and to do it without guilt or remorse.

It's been a while since I last wrote. Life has been strange and wonderful and tiring... There's a sudden loneliness when you realize the immensity of the burden that one carries. And the most challenging piece of information comes one you find out that your closest -- friends, family, and partner -- are actually a source of the tension as well. I tell myself that things will work out eventually. It should not be the hard. I'm sure the worst is over and the best is yet to come.